finally... the week of ultimate tests is over... but... thatz tests... still got 1 more coming up this weekend... plus fna project, science of music essay, english essay... sian... so many things again! got back my 2108 test, 52/100... haha wouldnt say im too sad... cuz i noe im going to get somewhere around there... itz the module that gave me the same feeling as 1100, maybe abit better...

hmm been considering to go for summer programme to toronto, my mum said up to me lor... but she said it would be better to find somebody to go with, anybody interested??? heard that my elder bro is going europe for summer programme too, so they cant possibly say no to me...hehe... but i think if i cant find pple to go with me, then maybe i'll think twice... go for the talk first ba, hopefully got pple to go with!

nxt saturday KE7 performance inviting us as guest performers, luckly only doing 1 song, gonna practice tml night... ahhh tml morning got to rush back to hall for open house, i seriously think there wont be many pple coming to visit hall tml, guess can slack abit... haha... pearlyn said today's turnout also not much, tml will be even worse lor.. i think... oweells see how ba...

oh yah... must thank him =) thanks for doing so much for me! especially the fruit salad with ice-cream, and the ice-cream strawberries! damn nice lor!!!!!!!!! =) amidst all the studying and slogging, he still took time out to do all these... =)

shocking me
6:58 PM

yeah i made it seem so easy huh... to put everything behind, to avoid all the freaking questions and look pple give me, to hope that i'll never ever see ur frenz again cuz i think i'll get killed by them or something... it totally sux. so why did i want to make things come to this stage? good question... i also dunno how to answer it...

itz too tiring... im tired... go on and hate me, i dun wana defend myself anymore... no point defending such a bad bad bad bad bad girl, who hurt a guy who loved her so much so badly again and again... and let all ur frenz hate me too, for being such a bad bad bad bad bad girl who hurt their fren so badly again and again...

our world has ended... friends? i didnt say it was impossible... i just think that we both need some time to let things cool down... ever since u knew about his existence, u never cooled down anymore... the heat was just going higher and higher, and i noe that everything is MY fault. i gave up ur love, frienships with ur frenz, and get hated and looked down upon by everybody else... it was like this till today... and why did i do it?

cuz i didnt want to drag anymore... it was declining since i entered uni... im sorry that i didnt put in any effort to maintain it... or to even try to save it... and IT WASNT BECAUSE OF HIM. i say again... itz 2 totally different matters... nvm to sum it all up, i dun expect u to forgive me for wat i have done, i just hope that u can show other pple that u can live a better life without me... that will be doing me a great favour.

i destroyed 3 years of ur life... i dun deserve to be loved by anybody...

shocking me
3:28 PM

YOsh! haha so long never blog le, so decided to blog once before i start mugging like crazy for the 3 tests nxt week...

updates: kr night cycling yesterday! haha... quite fun lor! though he didnt come with me, (got test) but i still enjoyed myself very much... itz been quite a while since i talk to my blockmates like this! normally dun have much time... there was this road we were cycling on on the way back from changi village to go back to bedok area, itz just beside the runway for the airport, then straight road all the way lor! but it was a damn long one... so we all slowly cycle and talk along the way... en wei and austin was teaching me how to cycle with 1 hand, and then no hands! wat theeeee ok but i did manage to do with 1 hand quite well le! haha... then no hands probably for like 1 second? keke... yeah lol.. ate so much good food... the road also brought back some memories... but owells thatz besides the point...

and then i realise an interesting fact : all the hall guys are like so horny! forever thinking dirty lah! rachel just asked an innocent question : did march come? then chao can link here link there until... owellls yeah... took me rach and pearlyn quite some time to get it... itz like... last time in jc also never hear guys talking about such stuff infront of girls one lor! then yao zong said : cuz they haven been through army wat... haha... owellsss... overall it was an enjoyable trip! just that the butt's aching very badly now... haha

just met up with py on friday, so long never see her le lor! haha so wanted to ask her out for a quick dinner before i go back for night cycling... yeah usual complains : tutorial too difficult! haha im really glad that shawn told me not to go to engine... if not i will be like dying there also lor! haha my level 1000 math is still quite fun to do, just apply formula lor!

tml's elaine's birthday party... decided to go for a while before going back to kr to mug, not very nice to reject pple's invitation lor.. esp when she didnt invite everybody, which means that at least she made the effort to invite u lor! not some other pple... so should go ba...

heard from mum, bro's having a party at home tml night... some jc junior and senior class bbq dinner... haha reminds me of vj lor! the jts or stj thingy.... aka junior treat senior, senior treat junior... yeah today is vjc homecoming day! but im not going... too shagged le! haha... but saw the programme for the day, not bad, quite interesting.. still can sign up to play sports against the juniors one lor! haha so cool right... anyway my class also only 1 or 2 going back... no point lor...

last note : i realise that... a person's smile is very important to me, or maybe alot of other pple also find it true for them... yeah itz like, if i see the person that matters to me alot, frowning, depressed, the mood is like automatically brought down by half... just hope that i will be of some use for the person, to pick the person up from the failure, or just cheer the person up, i'll feel so much more cheerful! keke... so if u see me frowning, it's cuz u are frowning!

shocking me
2:38 PM