now even happiness. everything down to the drain. not going anywhere. just sitting here and rotting. me the guai girl that listens to wat their parents say. it's just painful, that something u have planned for someone so dear to u is destroyed in a few seconds. although i didnt really take so long to plan it, at least i had one.

sad

i feel like just dashing out of the house with the cake. just hack care wat she says. at most come back face the music lorz...

sad

she claims that this kind of stuff is ridiculous. lame. wu liao. like they never have midnite surprises ever in their times. but hello, im not living in ur world. crap

shant talk about it. itz gonna to be the past soon, probably can try planning one again if it falls on weekends, then can go lor's house stay. hahaz that will be the best solution. my secret hide out from these problems. thanks lor

seriously i think teaching is bad. my temper's quite bad now as compared to the past. like i can be irritated by things lytt. i think one day i may look back and see, wah jiemin ar jiemin u are so damn petty and immature lor... owells i dunoe wat im talking anymore. im just

sad

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11:12 PM

im just super duper irritated. to the max. that's why i lie to them. that's why everytime i wana stay out late i say im staying over at lor's house. only then i have abit more freedom. i just wana give d a surprise, okay fine one girl travelling at like midnite is damn dangerous. fine fine, ARGH!!!!! but im just so irritated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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feel like just cancelling the whole thing, told her that itz at his house, but itz like all the way at tamp, if i told her itz at tamp u think she will let me go? then if now i go and tell her itz at tamp, what will she say? itz supposed to be a happy day, but i cant feel that anymore. IRRITATED

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just felt like banging the keyboard. my brain is dead. i dun wana think anymore.

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10:43 PM

yae!!! finally the sailing team jacket is coming in! itz from addidas... cant really remember which colour and design we chose.. i think it was red... hahahaz... still remember we had a heated debate during interschools about the jackets... the good old days...

anyways the days of teaching are getting better, cuz i simply dun care anymore... esp the girl siu ching... she love to complain, so i just listen to her say finish wat she wana say, then i say " oh okay, go back to ur seat"... if not she will bug until i sianz half lor... she is one weird girl... under financial assistant, but she dun want the money that the school gives... cuz we were supposed to give her 50 cents everyday, she chao dun want right...

just watched this vcd eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, realise my bro has a lot of nice vcds... all those oscars winners... chim shows... hahaz... itz quite an interesting show... the way they show a love story is totally different...

there's this guy joel and his gf clem, they had a heated quarrel, so clem was so angry she decided to erase her memory of joel (they sort of had this technology to erase memories) joel realise that clem did that, then he wanted to do the same thing to himself... through the doctors and everything... but during the process he will be inside his brain, going through the memories... then halfway he decided to stop the process, cuz the memories were too valuable... then it shows how he resists the erasing of the memories lorz... the erasing is done from the day they broke up to the day they noe each other... so itz like a love story told backwards... cool right... hahaz...

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8:49 PM

yeah man, good news, my temper just got worse today... it was the ULTIMATE! i couldnt take it anymore... was almost going to tear already, but lucky control man... i was so angry that i really feel like tearing all the worksheets up lah! argh irritating kids. it was a mistake to put riddles for them to read. they come rushing to me for the answers and only like one out of 50 is correct. plus i have to entertain those who always complain who push who, who hit who, then plus i still need to teach the slower ones how to do, then plus the ones who wana go washroom and drink water and refill water... how to handle so many pple at one time!!!!!

there was once so many pple crowded infront of me i just shut my eyes, cover my head with some ws and hide... chao irritating!

then they were supposed to greet me before i dismiss them, but they took so damn long to even settle down, i just walked out of the class... just taking me for granted lor. i decided already, from tml onwards, i shall pick 3 worse kids if i have the period before recess. then i going to shut them in the class until like 10 min before recess end u noe...

maybe i should use the slack method, they noisy noisy lor, just talk to myself, they dun wana listen then too bad.. i think that was how alot of my teachers felt last time.. hahahahaz... that will save me alot of trouble and annoyment...

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9:14 PM

hahaz, suddenly got blogging feeling again, all thanks to lor =)

suddenly realise how long i havent been looking at blogs... so yeah decided to update, since im supposed to be quite free at home nowadays...

had a great night yesterday man! hahaz, i was in the staff room when i received lor's message, then my face cannot stop grinning already... hahaz finally can get to play mj leh... the other teachers thought what happened man...

so chionged to lor's house after dinner, didnt expect it to be super crowded... but owells i dun mind crowds, hahaz... then wx came after some time, and we started mj...

first round lost, second round won most back, all thanks to this guy ar, distract lor's attention... hehe... no lah, itz just the luck thingy... im never good in mjing...

then came the more interesting part other than mj, talk... at first thought it would be abit awkward to mix around with lor, her 2 couz plus fren, but it turned out quite alright... wah seriously suprised that the couz called serene is 27 years old!!! i thought she's my age lah... owells anyway actually itz more like the 2 guys talking and talking, the rest listen, once in a while pop out some comments... surprised that i didnt fall asleep lor, dun even feel like sleeping...
maybe too long never taunt already...

had alot of guys talk too, army and girlfriend... hahaz itz interesting to hear the other side of the story... but learnt something new: that we always think of the negative sides of a relationship, more than the fun times we have together, so should do the opp man... hahaz... i guess thatz how the guy stops himself from getting into trouble.

after the guys left, only me and lor in the room, hahaz then started the girls talk until morning... so long havent have a good chat with her already lor! kinda miss gossiping... hahaz... interesting man, alot of stories to listen for and tell too.

came to my house to sleep while waiting for pang, hahaz pang look the same lor... abit more toned... still as crappy as ever =p hope he can get a gf by the end of tml... hahahaz... like yes...

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8:39 PM