reflections: i tink im quite screwed... okay muz put other people infront of myself... cuz for the past 2 hours was trying to organise a meeting for pw tml... cuz at first i was the only one who cant make it tml... then we had to do it on sunday evening... but now i cant sail tml... so i tot maybe we could meet up tml so tat we can discuss... i scared sunday not enough time... plus maybe have to work until very late mah... but ph cant... as in the timing is not right for him lorz... then now have to trouble him to change his plans for tml... ahhhh feeling very very very very bad... okay... if he aint gonna make it tml... i tink i should juz cancel the whole thing... more fair right... hmm... but i was thinking since he's got to spend time on preparing the script for the skit... me grace kw and wd should work on the powerpoint more... hmm... does it sound okay? i hope so... dunoe lah...

shocking me
10:09 PM

aye.. honestly... today wasnt a very good day...

first ponned phy lect to go parkway eat lunch... oooh! i tot of a new thing! i shall start a food journal... to record wat i ate for each day... hahahaz... sounds interesting right??? should i get a column for it? or just type it in the daily entries? shall look into that soon...

niwae... yeah after returning back from parkway... then kena niao by mrs lim lah... actually i dun tink she noes that we ponned lecture... but she noes that our lecture was only 1 period... so there is no reason we should be late for her class.. owells... then ph msged me to ask me to help him cover up... then when mrs lim asked bout him... errr i didnt really noe wat to say lah... *sorry*

after that was sort of the hit of the day.. physics tut... which ended up to become more of a ct session... firstly... i suddenly felt that like... some of us... became abit like... competitive, not only in terms of studies lah... but... okok shall slowly describe... like when mr lee gave us one whole list of the dates and time we can book the classrooms and sessions with him for op lah... then the first 2 groups immediately rushed up and koped the wednesday's time slot... which were sort of the best ones lah... cuz they can perform in the classroom with mr lee around to give comments also... i mean this kind of stuff is damn minor and i admit i think too much lah... but the feeling that this whole thing gave me was like... we are now fighting with each other so that we can have things to our advantage... that kind of stuff... like how kev described poly life...

then another thing was... ph was looking very very depressed during the whole session lah... like drawing black stuff on his tut... i juz looked at him draw... didnt dare to like tok to him or anything... quite scary oso... then with that my mood oso went all the way down with him... i dunoe why lah... hahaz... tried to cheer him up after the lesson ended... but he juz walked off alone... ??!! dunoe watz happening...

after that i dont know why... i suddenly felt like crying... juz a sudden rush of emotions... but of course i controlled... was doing chinese alone in the canteen... then saw pple like talking in groups and stuff... felt abit lonely lah... cuz had to wait for the odac pple to go take vaccinations at cgh... but i guess this kind of stuff is quite normal right... just dunoe why today felt exceptionally saddening...

things got better when we went to cgh... i guess i really feel much more comfortable with a group of pple around me... hahaz... yeah we were talking alot of crap... then the best thing was another girl who went to sgh instead of cgh and then had to take cab back down to cgh... she kept complaining and saying that the odac pple should compensate her and pay for her cab fee... and the time lost for the whole afternoon cuz in the end she didnt take the jabs... she took other medications in the morning then doctor say cannot take the injections... have to come another day... which means she spent the 20 bucks cab fare for nothing... then say wat she could have used the afternoon to study chinese lah... hahahaz... wth!!! like i will study chinese lytt... hahaz... can understand her frustrations lah... cant really blame her too... but her attitude... abit... hahaz dunoe how to say... well just take it as just something that will happen only when she's angry...

aye... doctor say cannot do exercise for around 3 days... so which means i cant go sailing tml!!! ahhh but decided i shall still go lah... go sit on powerboat oso shuang... hehe... can get abit of tan oso... hahahaz...

"The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see, And knows what the mind cannot understand."

shocking me
8:23 PM

starting on my food fiesta again! hahaz... nah ate quite alot of extra stuff today, so i guess i have to return to baos for the nxt few days... today's jeremy's bday... lor bought a tiramisu cake for him... so nice!!! er as in the cake's damn nice! hahaz... *opz* yeapz... the whole class was feasting on it...

then had pe session... was listening to some halloween music... and playing some lame treasure hunt... we looked like some bunch of idiots scrapping around each and every corner of the area outside the gym lah... cuz we only knew that the note was somewhere there... in the end the other group got it first lah.. hahaz... nvm

yeapz tml is halloween! wish everybody out there happy halloween! hahaz... although it doesnt really matter in singapore... hmm... if only there's a halloween holiday for singapore too and we can all go trick or treating together... that sounds like alot of fun iznt it??!!

after tat had comm meeting... like not long and draggy... we just kept on sticking to the same stuff over and over again... aye... so reached home at like 9 lah... *tiredz*

hahaz had my first coaching session today! yae... my first piece was quite alright... he didnt really have alot of comments... but my second piece is really going to kill me lah... only tried to play abit infront of mr khoo... then he said my rhythm wrong... ahhh hahaz... nvm nvm slowly practice lorz...

"The deepest feeling always shows itself in silence."



shocking me
10:28 PM

Artist: Dido
Song: White Flag

Lyrics :

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be


shocking me
8:51 PM

well had a long chat with him yesterday... getting more and more worried bout him... really feel like giving him a big scolding and tell him "enjoy your life!" , but then again wat position am i in to give him one right... im like the zui4 kui2 huo4 shou3 lah... err i tink ttz how it sounds... shit chinese coming still dunoe... okay thatz out of point, yeah... but glad that at least he told me watz happening... and hope that by telling me he feels better.. hope so... aye watever

hmm just read lor's blog... and yeah discovered something new bout her... hahaz... not long ago i was still asking wx bout her dad... but we didnt really suspect anything then... owells... now i noe why... nothing new... saw alot of these cases before... py... kev... well seriously glad that i come from a complete one... so u guys out there muz treasure wat you have now k! okay i shouldnt say that too... cuz i didnt.. nvm

tml going to have my first piano coaching under mr khoo... hope he's not scary or watever... hahaz... but niwae i practiced my first piece liaoz... so shudnt be much of a problem... =)

die die die lah... op in 1 week plus time... still need to get a skit done, powerpoint slides and a handout, well at least we thrashed everything out within 45min today... hahaz... so going to grace's house on sunday to work on the powerpoint... sunday again... hmm if i dun have sailing then should be going out with py tere and kev... then 5 go grace's house loz... aye so busy again... tml got pe... friday have to go for vaccination... sat got sailing whole day... then sun...

"Sometimes the perfect person for you is the one you least expect."


shocking me
8:00 PM

first time reached home so early since last week... hahaz... yeapz reached home at 2 plus lorz... niwae nothing to do in school liaoz... was wondering wat i was doing for my past tuesdays... and realised that it was either mj or pool or gelare... hahaz... no wonder feel so weird going home early today...

watched matrix reloaded!!! hahaz... ms low damn nice today... let us watch... thursday also!!! hahaz... but wat show can we watch??? which is 1 hour and 15 min lah... but i dun mind watching anything nice just for the sake of watching it... cant finish also nvm... any suggestions??? was thinking of jap anime... like spirited away?? itz damn nice lah... and short also... maybe can fit into the time slot mah...

aye... he aint feeling well... well i can only ask him to take care here... cant really tag on his blog... got a feeling that i will get *bished* hahaz... last time one of his ears already got prob.. now both... aye... wat to do wat to do wat to do...

"there are many other beautiful grasses infront of you, put me down and continue walking along the field, you haven't reached the end yet..."

shocking me
3:35 PM

another long and tiring day... ohoh before i forget.. muz correct sumthing i said wrongly the last blog... the tj guy i mentioned... err itz not tj.. itz sa... hahaz... *kok myself* *ouch* hahaz... crap i tink im getting lamer and lamer... oh yeah... one more observation i made... quite a number of pple stumbled on my blog iznt it?? william... then yesterday azleen said she has a fren who also stumbled on my blog lah... then say i was chao enthu bout sailing... hahaz... owells...

lessons were equally boring... lor went for dental app after chem tut... then left me sitting alone among one whole bunch of guys lah... hahaz... then ph best... sleep until going to fall on me liaoz... (im sure he doesnt have any other intentions??) hahaz... then i knock his head then he woke up... hahahaz... guess we each had our turns.. cuz after that i slept during physics tut... then he whacked me on my head too... but i didnt fall on him! hmph... tatz not fair... nvm...

pt pt pt! today's rina's bday... so while the rest went to jog... those who cant went to buy cake lorz... didnt jog much today.. definately lesser than wat i jog normally lorz... feel quite relaxed... hahaz... maybe i really improved? owells... niwae we jogged slightly less than 6k according to the girls... then did conditioning... and cake! hahaz.. itz chocolate fudge... quite nice... ahhh all the chocolate's making me feel so sinful... hahaz...

oh yeah... another comment from yesterday.. tink man yi's very sweet looking... hahaz... and zhi cao is full of crap! really ultimate crap man... he was like saying something like wanting to conquer the world or sumting to azleen... how crappy can that get man... hahaz... didnt noe man yi and maxi are together until today... hahaz... i tot maybe maxi and jo can have a chance... tot they were quite compatible too.. =p

irritatingness? i guess itz got into some of us... me also having this problem... although not very serious lah... but sometimes do get irritated by the slightest stuff right... sounds quite bo liaoz... but owells... hahaz...

shocking me
9:11 PM

yae!!!! hehe finally i got to sail!!!!! wah felt chao shuang.. esp today not very strong wind... just nice for me!!!! ooolala! hehe... yeap but nevertheless... i still capped... itz duh one lah... i will cap in every training no matter wat... am i really so lousy? hahaz... nvm nvm... had a couple of races.. which i got last for every... cannot blame me.. the rest all from national team one okay... plus this tj year 2 guy... cant remember his name.. owells

oh! the only thing i felt proud of was i was the first or second to round the yellow mark... this damn far one near to the cargo ships lah... itz the first time i sailed soo far out! hahaz.. quite cool man.. but scary... while rounding the mark got this cargo ship going past lah... hahaz... so fun!!! but... it was close haul all the way there... way back? run.... ahhhh i hate running!!! hahaz... cuz i only like jogging right?? *opz* lamed... hahaz... yesh thatz where i capsized... i dunoe why my boat always very unstable when im on the run leh... argh... then the tiller extention came out a few times also... conclusion... vj equipment sux... hahaz... 2 booms off the list today... one done by azleen and one by just... hahahaz... diaoz..

niwae got so scared bout running after capsizing that i passed the boat to just lah... cuz his boat something wrong oso... then he got onto the powerboat... so i exchanged with him lorz... niwae i noe he wana sail lah.. hahaz... but in the end he still have to go back early with a spoilt boom... hahahaz... just his luck i guess...

quite shuang lah... sitting on the powerboat watching them sail... hmm i tink i learn more watching wat they do on the powerboat lah... hahaz... yae! and the foo was going damn fast!!! like not shuang... i saw the meter... the fastest he went was like 30.. er i dunoe watz the unit though.. km/h?? hahaz.. at that speed i was almost bouncing off the boat already.. then he turned around and took a look at me... then he slowed down... like he forgot my existence lytt... hahaz...

ohohoh! had a great time laughing at the tj guy... cuz his tiller extention kept on coming out from his tiller... then damn funny! hahaz.. the frustrated look on his face... then he would bang the tiller on the boat to make sure it stays... hahahaz... i tink it came out at least 5 times lah... but he still managed to catch up with maxi for the last few races... oooh quite zai...

guess wat?! i juz ate like 10 chocolates... and 2 giant biscuits after dinner at my grandma house lah... wah!!! damn nice lorz! cuz got alot of different flavours... so i wanted to try every flavour... which... i almost did except for 2-3 i guess... hahahaz... nvm nvm... think about it as energy boosters for tml's 6k run yah... hahaz... damn nice... =p

yesh! another thing i accomplished today... got some of my tan back!!! hehe... although i still put sun block... yae!!!! hope can sail more... then grow darker...

shit haven finish my zuo4 wen2.. since morning... hahaz... better finish it soon... ciaoz

"The line between love and obsession is drawn by only circumstance."

shocking me
9:54 PM

tired tired... had college cleanup... swept the floors of 16 classrooms... quite slack one lah... hahaz... then proceed to mj at lor's house as usual... lost damn alot lah! luckily wx won the last round for me... limit neh!!! hehe... then manage to recover some losses... so overall lost 2.40... still not bad... hahaz... realise my mj all the way all losing one.. but each time i dun lose alot... come to think of it... if this goes on i will lose alot of money... hahahaz... heck...

niwae went for the uni talk... sat with my mum... so funny the whole row only me and lor's mums were sitting among our class lah... hahahaz... well hmmm i guess for the time being i will be going towards computer engineering lah... actually considered teaching also... but... ai yah see how lorz... hahaz...

hmm should i go sailing tml? rl say him justin and maxi going to sail tml... the 3 of them like not zai!!! at first i dun feel like going cuz.. like if me this newbie go and sail with them... i bet they will all end up like saving me instead of sailing their own stuff lah... pls i cant even remember how to rig up a laser liaoz... only did it twice... then if tml strong wind then best liaoz... i can go and die... hahaz... but on second thoughts... if i dun sail with them right... i will never get to improve myself... which is wat i want to do the most now lorz... hmmmm... still thinking....

"For in the face of heartbreak, I look up and realize it is self inflicted."

shocking me
6:44 PM

hehe... happy deepavali everybody!!! oolala... wat a sianz day... hahaz... actually it was quite alright lah... luckily went out with some frenz... so didnt have to stay at home the whole day...

well lor suggested we go for the NUS charity fiesta... so we went... they said it was at jurong east mrt lah... wah seh... damn small scale... i tink we finished walking through everything after like 15 min lah... wth.. hahaz... spent so much time travelling there... then this is wat we did.. owells at first i tot this fun fair thingy was at NUS lah... then maybe can go explore the campus or maybe see my cousin around somewhere... but turn out lytt... hahaha... like not sad... well bought a waffle, and lor got some test tube thingy for her ken... *hehe* quite nice leh...

niwae after that went back to city hall... and... ate bread... hahahaz... well kind of expected right... with a bread lover like me around... yupz then we were all sitting down eating bread when this guy approached us... cuz we were all like in dazing mode lah... so he juz came and advertise his product... hahaz... quite a nice guy, cuz he said that we were nice enough to let him say wat he wana say before we shoo him off... hahahaz... yeapz.. in the end we still never buy lah... and one thing i appreciate bout him is that he didnt go on bugging like... buy la buy lah, but just said thanks and walked away... hahaz... i like this kind of pple... ohohoh!!! he was asking where we from... then i asked him to guess lah... he said lor looked like she's from poly... me? half sec school half poly... wx? hahahaz... the saddest case of all... sec school all the way... hahahahaz... cuz of the way he dress lah... me and lor were wearing skirts mah... then more mature looking... hahahaz... i bet if i wore shorts or pants he would say i was from sec school oso lah...

ahhh shopping is fun!!! hehe... well at least shopping with lor's fun.. thatz my conclusion after shopping with her for 2 days... dun really shopped around with my frenz much... well tried shopping with ht once... but turn out disastrious... err actually not so bad lah... hahaz... but she oso those type, while u are looking around.. she will like leave the shop liaoz lah... then i oso follow her out lorz... shopping's not very efficient lytt... hahaz... but lor.. ooolala she'll stay and... we will leave together... hahahaz... yeap yeap.. sooo bought my pencil box!!!! hahahaz... quite nice lah... very huggable i realise... and quite bulky... but itz nice! hahahaz... i like the material inside the pencil box... very comfy... see i treat my stationary so nicely... juz bought them a new home... hahahhaaz... thatz kinda crap aint it...

yosh! saw this nice nice nice nice nice shoe!!! or iz it sandal? ahh watever lah... oohohoh footwear... hahahaz... yeapz.. itz high heels... quite high, but still can balance on it lah.. hahaz... sort of liked it after trying for the first time... and itz a slip in type, no other laces watever stuff... so very easy to wear... hahaz... u noe im lazy... yeapz... but didnt buy it until we were walking back to the mrt after walking through suntec until carrefour there lorz...

lor bought her prezzie for ken... a cream coloured tie... nice leh!!! hahaz... and itz quite cheap... from topman... ohohoh!!! i saw this damn nice black dress from topshop oso... itz quite a nice dress for prom lah... and itz only 63 leh!!! much better than my prom dress which i bought from metro at 65 bucks lah... ahhhhh... nvm nvm... hahaz... anyway lor oso went to samuel and kevin to buy a top... the tops there quite nice also...

hmm... i was just tinking bout it again... realise that kev really taught me alot of stuff... learnt alot from him... he's got a wide general knowledge man... cuz lor was toking bout chanks... then i suddenly recalled bout him toking bout gerkas... if thatz how u spell it... cuz he lived near lky mah, then said his guards are all gerkas... then some pple in the class dunoe wat are gerkas lah... then i was like... woow lucky i heard it from kev before... cuz they will always run along serangoon road mah... then got one time he pointed out to me and asked me who are they... hahahaz... which of course i didnt noe then lah...

ahhh crapz crap crap crap... ohohoh i saw alot of pple i noe today!!! first itz cuilian! gal who took the sailing beginner course also... then the sc samanta who also took that sailing course... then...oh! my cousin! and her husband... hahaz... they are super shopping maniacs man... both of them lah... so good right, can find a husband to shop with... hahaz... owells... oh and saw yh and yc... both from city co... long time never see them liaoz neh!!! the guy is my rgco chair's bf... hahaz... so qiao3 right...

*yawnz* damn tired... went to see my bro off at the airport... there like not alot of ns pple... hahaz... all not bad looking siaz... ai yah im not so despo... was juz looking around... niwae nothing to do... and my poor mum finally had a taste of wat coffee bean's like... hahaz... she was like... wah! so nice! yet so ex... hahaz... owells... my bro was with his fren most of the time... another guy.. also from vs!!! ahhhh watz with vs man... my life is circulated around vs pple... oh watever... hahahaz... =p

"If a hug represented how much I loved you, I would hold you in my arms forever."

shocking me
8:14 PM

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... haha... dunoe how to start... nvm nvm shall start on my narration of the day's happenings again...

had normal lessons... while rl ponned and went to rj open house... i was sooo tempted to go lah!! but muz be guai... cannot pon... hahaz... in the meantime, i was damn pissed off with that guy lah... okay at first he ask if can borrow chinese notes... which i forgot to bring yesterday... then yesterday he asked me if i have probability tut 1 and 2... he didnt even asked properly if he can borrow or not... he juz asked if i have... of course i have right.. err just that it's not with me then... niwae this morning he came for the chinese notes... i only gave him those that i sorted out to study for the latest mock exam lah... lazy to search for anymore liaoz... then he asked for the probability notes lah.. but i said im lending it to lor.. so he cant get it... but told him if he want can take tut 2 after my lect lah... then his break suddenly change, become lessons... wah then spent damn alot of smses toking bout where to meet lah... then i got abit irritated liaoz... hahaz..

theeennnnn... he messaged and asked me to help him photocopy EVERYTHING from application of diff n integrat and prob and stat lah... i was like wth?!?!?!?! at least he put one phrase... if u have the time... if not i really blast off man... ahhh.. jy! you should have told me earlier bout him.. hahaz.. cuz the whole class nobody wana lend him any notes lah... seriously i also think he should kena retain... *opz* am i being too bad? watever... yeapz he actually got promoted after getting EOF i tink... hahaz... lucky bastard...

nvm bout that... went to watch the soccer match rj with vj... wow! fantastic match... ahhaz... cuz i guess itz the first match i watched with pple i noe playing mah... then at least can watch out for them right... wah william damn zai! hahaz... his flying kick sent the ball near the goalpost... dunoe if it went straight in or somebody gave it push lah... that was the first goal for rj... yae!!! wanted to shout out... hahaz... but i noe i will get killed... ph got subbed in after a while... wah he oso play until damn hiong... and........ guess wat?! rj won by 3 nil!!! hahaz... and i witnessed all 3 goals... before my ot pt... hahaz... oooolala *opz* although i oso feel abit sad for vj lah... really!!!

hahaz... first time climbed stairs climb until so hiong... 3 times... 25 storeys... but got a short break in between each climbs lah... so not too bad... my legs didnt get very very wobbly... still remember the worst experience was during the sailing trials... hahahaz... 360 squats... did in sets lah... but after that.. was forced to run 2.4... really.. can die... hahahaz... of course still got other conditioning stuff lah... but i tink the squats were the killers..

well... think thatz about it... so long never see william!!! hahaz... i miss my rj frenz alot... ahhhh *aye* hahaz.. he oso notice my chance in hairstyle... say very messy.. messy then nice wat! right? right?? hahaz... watever... oh and that rl.. went for rj open house and never came back... i tink he too attacted to jo liaoz right? hahahaz... or maybe ate so much in holland v and dun wana come back... watever...

oh read something interesting in kev's blog... a story... which really set me thinking... again... but i dun tink i have walked finish the whole field yet... hope there's more beautiful grasses coming up... then again... i doubt there will be lah... hahaz...

lor's partially correct today... i say PARTIALLY... hahaz... she said that im like receiving smses from all those pple that i dun wana receive from... thatz true... but the part bout me wanting those pple that i want to sms me... is... err in a way partially correct... hahahaz... ai yah watever...

"Don't frown because you never know, Who's falling in love with your smile."


shocking me
9:08 PM

wat a sianz day... had proper lessons... after so many weeks... hahaz... which kind of sux... ah!!!! rj open house tml!!!! i wana goooooooo... but im so guai... dun wana pon lessons leh... like damn bad to do so... *aye* wat to do wat to do... got alot of pple i wana catch up with lah!!! my sailing frenz... classmates... and my rg frenz!!! ohohoh and the highlight of the day-arya cheerleading! hahahaz... how bad can it get man... *whopz* hehe... cant imagine him cheerleading lah... owells hope he doesnt make a mess out of everything...

niwae... im officially in sailing!!!! ooolala... hehe... and i guess im going to be the qm... alamak... hahaz.. actually dun have to do much one right... juz stock taking... which everybody does together... but lowell say he's going to quit sailing lah... if he's forced to... ahhh that leaves me as the only qm lah... cuz malcom's quitting also... so sad right... *aye* oooh nxt year will have damn alot of zai pple coming in... ahh i guess they dun really need me but anyway i still wana join *hehe*

oh! guess wat... ahh i noe there's a possibility that he's reading this right now.. but heck lah... hahaz.. well today we were discussing whether he zipped his pants properly or not again... hahaz... this time round it was obviously half zipped... ahhh!!! *yucks* hahaz... and he actually said that laH! cuz he saw us laughing at him.. then he said "izit because of my zip?" ?!?!?!?! i swear that he's reading our blogs... hahaz... but as i mentioned before... who gives a damn bout that... he's quite an open minded person lah... so nothing bad will happen niwae...

ahhh i just realise that i cant sail nxt wed also!!!! rl!!! got chinese mock test lah!!! wth!!! this sat cannot, nxt wed cannot... have to wait one week.... ahhhhhhh im dying to sail... hahahaz... michelle was still asking me why am i so enthu bout sailing... plz... how long have i sailed??

"Although the sky may be full of stars, My heart is empty without you."

shocking me
8:00 PM

you hug her goodbye like its nothing, while all you want to do is hold on forever, but you let go, smile and walk away. then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same. because try as you might you can't make someone love you, sometimes you have to let them be free... and letting go... thats when love hurts most of all...
got this from him yesterday nite... agree that itz very true if seen from his point of view... *aye*

itz a normal school day... got back gp... was damn surprised lah!!! i actually got 30 for compo!!! ooolala! i tink itz my highest so far lah... hahahaz... muz really thank ms low man... her fixed structure thing really kept me in focus... *whew* compre also did better than i expected... cuz i didnt finish the application qn mah.. then i realise the marks that i got without finishing the qn is around the same as wat i normally get even if i finish the qn lah... hahaz... so also nvm... overall 58 for gp!!!! ooolala... hahahaz... thatz promos only lah... i tink overall for the year is 57... hehe... surpassed my target of a pass only...

owells then went to jog 6k with wx... wah... i tink itz the first time i run such a long distance lah... but nevertheless i was able to run lah... hahaz shiok! then went to watch the guys play soccer... wah they play until damn rough lah... as in while against another team from tkss i tink... so scary!!! all their expression look so stern... hahaz... i guess all of them wanted to win... but luck wasnt on our side i guess... nvm! try harder nxt time! hahaz...

then wx injured his right wrist while being the goalkeeper... like not suay.. hope he's alright... looked quite painful lah... hahaz... imagine u cant use ur right hand.. wah really can die lah... hahaz... plus AO chinese coming soon... eh bro! better recover fast hor! yupz yupz... helped him get the ice for his wrist... while the rest of the odac pple went to jog.. the girls only jogged 3.3k.. the priya looked quite cham... sort of worried that maybe she cant get past these trainings... as in cannot tahan lah...

was waiting for them to come back... then i can do conditioning... muz say that the conditioning really damn slack!!! hahaz... my sailing pt was so much tougher... but owells itz better than nothing... =)

ohohoh! mr wee asked me if i really wana join sailing... of course i said yes! hahaz... then he called me to go down with the rest tml for stock taking! yae!!! that means im officially recognised as a sailor in the vj team!!! ooolala.. err at least i tink so... hahaz... even though not sailing tml... but still very happy to keep in touch with sailing.. after so long lah.. hehe.. =)


shocking me
9:41 PM

hey ya! nice background song i have here right?? hehe... so proud of myself... managed to do the uploading and the changing of the templates myself... but owells most of the credits still go to kev... cuz he was the one who taught me the basics... my heart's feeling lytt... not exactly wat the lyrics say lah... as in... just the song itself... aka dunoe how to say... just the music u noe... yeah... esp after reading his blog... feeeling damn bad!!!!!!!!! *argh* seriously... feel as if i just killed a person... the guiltiness is intolerable... *aye*

niwae got the hell of a time in school today man... was quite satisfied with my math results... then came chem... first time i getting like 58.5 for my chem mah... although i dun have much confidence in it in the first place... but didnt expect to do so badly... but still managed to scrap through and get a C lah... hahaz... physics was around what i expected... luckily did alot better in my section B... cuz didnt manage to finish section C... so only got a pass for it... so overall still not bad... got B... ABBC... very good liaoz lah... dun really have high hopes on myself... =)

then went to play pool at classic again... hahaz... saw jon ong and another girl from dfc one... he playing his usual 7 feet... owells... then as usual i got poisoned again.. took quite a short time this time leh... maybe cuz today took back the results.. then feeling abit sianz lah... hmm wonder how did my buddies do for math... wx was saying most prob one pass one fail... hmm of course i hope that both oso pass lah...

have a feeling that chanks is reading our blogs... now that he has easy access to all of ours if he get his hands on one of ours after we link each other... hahaz... the thought of a teacher reading ur blogs... quite scary right.. but who cares lah... hahaz... know know lorz... i got nothing to hide...

wx say our ot group changed again... hahaz... eh bro dun feel too sad k?? u still have alot of other chances to get close to her... =) yeapz... she's out in a diff team from wx.. so now my team's like... me wx... my buddy! shawn... errr renna den and bixian... if i never remember wrongly... owells im fine with anything lah... so as long the group got at least one person that i noe lorz... tml having pt... yae!!!! can exercise... hahaz... jogging i tink...

ohohoh rl taught me a new method of training abz... i tink they kena it as some punishment lah... hahaz... maybe can check it out...



shocking me
8:43 PM

Mandy Moore - Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over, and over again.
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over, and over, and over again.

Chorus:
So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray.
To be only yours I pray.
To be only yours.
I know now, you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing, and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far.
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

Chorus:
So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray.
To be only yours I pray.
To be only yours.
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm givin' you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am.

At the top of my lungs, I'm givin' it back.

Chorus:
So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hand and pray.
To be only yours I pray.
To be only yours I pray.
To be only yours.
I know now, you're my only hope.

damn nice song over here!!! ahhh... although it sounds very sad... hahaz...

one word bout today... SIAN... owells at least the morning and early afternoon was... was staying at home dunoe doing wat lah... mostly pw stuff... then wx wanted to go out and play pool... at first i said anything... then suddenly felt quite sianz lah.. hahaz... so didnt go in the end lorz... then ph was online... i oso messaged him if he wana go play pool mah.. then he said too far.. lazy to go right... hahaz... then he said he wana go shopping... then i oso wana shop around... so in the end we went shopping lorz! hahaz... called lor along also...

well... must say that ph's quite a nice guy to shop with... will give comments lah.. normally when girls shop around the guys will just stone in some corner of the shop right... but he was like... hmm this one not bad... that kinda thing.. hahaz... yeap yeap... nxt time can go shopping together again!!! hahaz... guess wat i got?? my first piece of clothing from mango... hahaz... they bought it for me as my bday present lah.. after ph bought his jeans as his bday present too... hahaz... tml u guys have to pay up liaoz... hahaz... actually saw another denim skirt in mango quite nice one... but itz 59 i tink... denim skirt anywhere oso can buy right... so didnt get it lorz...

hmm... heard alot bout the party yesterday nite from ph... hahaz... i getting abit curious how parties are like liaoz... never been pubbing or clubbing before... he said there's gonna be one organised by my buddy in december neh!!! hahaz... muz grab this chance...

toking bout yesterday's party... my fren best liaoz... she told her mum that she going to a chalet in sentosa with her ny frenz... although she's from ac... hahaz... then she diverted all the calls from her phone to my phone lah... best liaoz right.. hahaz... so if her mum calls... i have to answer and say... oh she is bathing.. hahahaz... lucky i at my relative's house.. so background quite noisy... hope that her mum didnt hear my nephew screaming around.. hahaz... fancy having a kid at a chalet.. hahahz... hope her plot went smoothly... if i were her i wouldnt even answer the call lah... hahaz... *opz*

wah chao ate alot at my relative's house... although she didnt really prepare alot of food... but her buttercakes was damn nice!!!! i just couldnt stop eating lah... hahaz... buttercakes are da best!!!! ooolala...

"The essential sadness is to go through life without loving.
But it would be almost equally sad to leave this world without ever telling those you loved that you love them."





shocking me
9:26 PM

geez... vj open house rox! hahaz... yupz yupz... had one tiring day of open house... only saw 2 of my juniors leh... hahaz... but nvm still better than none... went around eating like a pig again... haahz... tatz why i didnt really eat a proper lunch... ate 1 ice-cream cone... 2 ba kuas from the ba kua society *?!* hahaz... eh 1 choc from the sailing booth... the cheese with bread from.. err dunoe wat cca... hahaz... and the biscuits from the goodie bags... i went to kop... hahz... and a yam bao... ooolala... hahaz... so full...

well glad that lor finally met him...hahaz... after so many months right?? hehe... she was like... screaming with joy lah after toking to him for just a while... hiek hiek... do i smell love in the air?? saw sherman's stead oso... actually nothing new lah.. cuz saw her before in my rg year book... hmm... lemmi see who else i saw... i tink thatz it...

hahaz... poor ri liang... had to go receive the colours award or was it the sports boy of the year watever prize on behalf of cx... hahahaz... he was like whining all the way yesterday nite... cuz pple go there take their own awards.. he go there be sub... hahaz... then when he return back to vj... me and lor were suaning him like wat... hahahaz...

well i guess i did a pretty good job promoting pe... hahaz... say until my throat dry liaoz lah... hahaz... oh managed to kop the mike from ph... didnt really noe wat to say at first... so was just calling pple to go watch wee lie sing an1 jing4... hahaz... his voice is power man... but not suitable to sing jay chou songs lah... hahaz... owells...

ohohoh!!! climbed the rock wall again... hahaz... argh!!! only managed to reach until the overhang... again!!!!! then i no strength liaoz leh... ahhhhhh so sad right... *aye* nvm nvm... i shall try harder nxt time!!!

haiz... i guess itz really really over between me and kev... err guess itz better this way lah... *sigh* read his blog... said he drank alot... which... iznt a good sign...

hmm... shall draw a map of the links between lor and me... hahaz...
lor-classmates-me
lor-shawn-denise-kev-me
lor-justicia-me
lor-ling ling-me
lor-xiao hui-me
goodness... iznt that like... wooow... hahaz... didnt noe we are so interlinked lah...

"Hopeless romantics are only hopeless, In the eyes of those who don't believe in romance."

shocking me
5:34 PM

gone in the wind... he is... haiz... nvm shall start from yesterday nite... received his sms saying that he went back to his ex... or should i say ex ex gf... yeap... wished them all the best... niwae from the start i was the one cutting in... even though they werent exactly together... i tink my presence made their bond stronger leh... hahaz... cuz the girl.. evan... she was quite upset when he was with me... like "why didnt i agree to patch up with him earlier" that kind of thing u noe... errr at least thatz wat happened from my point of view... so i guess well at least i did something good... but of course... i wasnt really feeling that good... *sad*

then got another sms from kev... after i received that... i just... broke down and cried... dunoe why... maybe itz just that he's too good to me... *can u dun be so nice to me?* ahhh... crapz... lucky i didnt sleep immediately after that... if not sure get swollen eyes... hahaz...

this morning... saw him in the canteen... didnt really dare to tok to him anymore... so juz waved hi... he appeared on stage to say stuff to the college oso lah... going to vietnam for 1 week... then brisbane for 3 weeks of intensive training... most likely gonna appear on tv on 5th or 6th of december for sea games i tink... muz keep a look out... hahaz... *crapz* and thatz it... didnt see him again... he left at 8.15.... really came to school for just a while man... then off he go... *tiubaboom*

i wasnt really in the mood to do anything during the farewell concert... well... for wat reason i guess u all should noe... everything's running through my head... everything... still remembered got once he crashed our chem tut... hahaz... was really caught by surprise... argh!!! *stop thinking bout it* okay... yeap... but as the concert went on... i was feeling better lah... then danced the 6 mass dances oso... which i totally suck in... hahaz... didnt really had a proper teaching session for the mass dances okay... so not my fault... hahaz... instead i was actually tinking of how to dance the rj mass dance... cuz wana go down this thurs on open house mah.. then they sure dance one right... so was recalling the dance steps... hahaz...

well nothing special happened after that... had pw... which ended up listening to lotza crap from ph... hahaz... although i was abit high oso... dunoe why... getting abit cranky i guess... and then was open house preparation... did all the stuff lah... pamplets watever... then first time got to really tok to a girl called calin... wah didnt noe she was so damn zai on playing piano lah!!! really take my hats off her man... can juz impromptu play one piece... as in free expression type u noe... seh seh.. even turned the vj school song into a jazz piece... hahaz...

ohohoh keith said tat maybe their band need a female singer or a keyboard player... oolala!!! i dun mind!!! hehe.. so cool right... being in a band... *seh* hahaz... wana learn drumming from lubin... lubin!!! teach me!!! hahaz... female drummer... not everywhere oso got one okay... *hiek hiek* owells... this reminds me of wee lie's performance at the link bridge this afternoon... hahaz.. he was singing an1 jing4... and playing the keyboard as well lah... his voice is damn power!!! hahaz... although his piano... cmi lah... hahaz... sometimes he had to pause cuz play wrong chords lah... wat u tink? hahaz... but overall still very good.. music fest finalist leh!!!

tml open house liaoz... anybody's free muz come down okay!!! itz sure gonna be some fun! the theme is l'arc en ciel lah... first thing i tink of is the jap band... hyde!!! hahaz... still remember me and peiqin used to be like crazy over hyde... and tatsu... their music rockx man!!! hahaz... hyde's damn shuai... but too bad... he's married... hahaz... yeapz niwae l'arc en ciel is supposed to mean rainbow... thatz what they wrote in the pamplet lah... they put all 3000 goodie bags in our pe room lah!!! wat the?! no space doesnt mean can use our room as some store room right... no respect for pe at all... nvm nvm... *aye*

"This thing and you shall never part, For the gift I give you, is all of my heart."

shocking me
8:59 PM

sianz sianz sianz... today damn sianz... stayed at home the whole day... well actually not really... went to shop around with mum and buy groceries and eat lunch lorz... hahaz... had the suan1 la4 mian4! nice!!! =p

well practised piano for most of the morning... before that went jogging... song bo!!! hahaz... went to the stadium to jog... tink jogging in the stadium really trains ur determination man... cuz every round u jog.. u will be like... nvm nvm 3 more rounds to go... hahahaz... thatz the bad thing bout jogging in the stadium... but the air's much better than jogging along the roadside right... owells...

then watched love hina for the whole afternoon lah... hahaz... until ep 20 liaoz... dunoe how many more to go... hmm.. listened to abit of 95.8fm when in my mum's car... then they toking bout marriages... how to make them last... and why couples quarrel watever stuff lah... and... there goes again... the dj said... actually if u think that this marriage iznt the best or one that u will hope to get into... dun fret... u should make the best out of it... instead of going for a divorce right... and even if u dun love 100% love ur spouse right... so as long he/she loves u... thatz very good liaoz... yeah maybe i should start thinking that way too...

toked to cx for a short while just now... he only came online for like 10 min or so... wished him all the best... well at least he's coming to school for a short while tml.. then maybe can see him... sort of have a feeling that i wont see him anymore if not for tml... hahaz...

and thanks kev!!!! for helping me with the html stuff... im quite a computer idoit right... maybe shouldnt consider computer engineering as one of my choices... hahaz... mum wants me to go be teacher neh.... hahaz... seriously i dun mind leh... tink teaching is quite fun... hahaz... well depends on wat students u get right... dun worry i wont end up like ms low... hahahaz... i have a very very good temper neh!

shocking me
8:16 PM

argh.. shit lah... why cant it work... damn it... nvm nvm... shall fix the bg music problem soon... yeah... hahaz... had a tiring day... dunoe why feel damn tired... hahaz

first... sat... math... no problem.. verbal?? die... hahaz... as usual right... no time... everything just guess... but nevertheless i filled in everything... minus marks then minus lah... hahaz.. dun care liaoz... yeapz.. after that had my pe meeting... oh shoot! need to do my pw stuff... then send to grace... hahaz our group quite efficient lah... we dun do it together... one person do one part then pass to the second person and so on... so im the first lorz...

hahaz... my math buddy gave me my belated bday present today... a sigg bottle... hahz.. quite cute... thanks buddy!!! that will be my 2nd bday present... hahaz... owells niwae after that went to parkway to eat lunch... at whata fish.. wah the soup like not salty!!!! *pengz* the burger was quite alright lah... but honestly i would have preferred to go anywhere else... hahaz.. nvm nvm at least i tried it once...

went to giant to buy mentos for open house souveniers... then on the way to popular guess who i met? lor! hahaz... she was just walking out of a lan shop lah... tot she went lanning... owells end up her fren was... she took a walk with me to popular... then the rest of the guys bought the plastic sheets and everything liaoz... then we went pool... for nearly 3 hours man... hahaz... jon ong and daniel was there too... still remember the first time i played pool with vj pple was with them... hahaz... nearly won jon ong leh... nvm nvm... oh saw the sailing fren who was previously from vj now in sa... he oso there... hahaz... so qiao3... everytime i see him will be at a pool place lah... saw him at monster before oso... yeapz i juz realise until now still dunoe watz his name... hahahaz... nvm nvm.. nxt time muz remember to ask... or did he tell me before?? -_-"

that was about it... oh yah... grace asked me bout me and cx today... when we were moving the chairs and tables to the storeroom... she sort of found my blog... *wow* hahaz... my blog's quite hard to find aint it? well not unless through the links lah.. hahaz... aye... yeah so told her bout stuff lorz... we still keep in contact lah... tok on msn... sometimes smses... this friday he's going off... if im not wrong... ahahaz... all the best...

*yawnz* just played hexic again... ahahz... new top score again... but still cant beat that ph... hmph.. nvm shall keep on trying..

"Some day you'll cry for me like I cried for you. Some day you'll miss me like I missed you.
Some day you'll need me like I needed you. Some day you'll love me, but I won't love you."

shocking me
8:34 PM

yae!!!!!!! come on man!!! im soooo smart!!! hiek hiek.... got the music done!!!!! ooolala... hahaz... nice song right!!!! ahhhh im so excited!!!!!!!!! finally got it man!!!!!! hahahahahhaaz.... over the moon liaoz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^

shocking me
11:07 PM

yosh... another day almost over... juz ate my dinner... although din really have the appetite... my stomach's damn damn bloated... k shall slowly go into wat happened...

first... hahaz... went to ps to watch infernal affairs 2... damn nice!!!! hiek hiek... edison is damn shuai lah!!! *winkz winkz von* hahaz... niwae was trying to link infernal 1 to the show while watching... like the part the who ar? aka forgot his name... the spy from the cops lah... he was angry over the girl who aborted their child... then thought back and realised that the girl grew up to become elva in IA 1... hahaz... link here link there... quite fun... hahaz... nvm shall slowly wait for IA 3!!!

owells... then after that we went to HMV to buy my george gershwin cd... oolala... listening to it now... damn nice!!! esp rhapsody in blue... doubt most of u all noe wat im toking bout... hahaz... feel like putting the tracks as my background song for my webbie... like not nice!!! then u all can listen to it too... hahaz...

ladidaz... shopped around for a while... then went to kino to buy comics... ahhh dun have book 1 naruto... nvm nvm... cuz i sort of lost it... then my elder bro finding... hahaz... haven told him i lost it... so have to faster find one to replace... *opz* still as absentminded as ever...

ahhh today oso ate damn alot leh... bread from breadtalk... then one milkshake from mos... then lor mee at cine... then got a drink from cheers... wah... got abit high after the drink... high on caffaine... hahaz... ooolala was damn bloated liaoz lah... niwae... had a good walk back to dhoby gaut... singapore shopping centre for pool... cuz kev and his frenz wana play pool there mah... but as usual... no place.. the whole place like not flooded with all the jc pple... mostly sa and aj...

so in the end.. bo pian... have to go back to monster and play... then got poisoned again.. hahaz... aye was feeling quite weird when jeremy and theodor came along... then goat and gazal oso came... errr i tink i was abit dao lah... but cannot blame me... really feel very funny leh... keep on thinking that they have a bad impression on me liaoz... *aye* dunoe lah... maybe i tink too much...

lor was quite right... i guess i still do love him... hahaz... why isit back to this topic again... kk shall avoid... *change topic* niwae came back and changed... chiong to stadium jog... but i tink i was too bloated... as i run keep having stitches... itz like come then go... then the food inside my stomach churn and churn and churn... as i run sometimes got one air bubble coming up... *can feel lah* hahaz... then if i dun stop jogging i cant burp... then very xin1 ku3... wah... it was lytt for quite some time lah... until i cant tahan anymore... so stopped running... only ran around 3.8 k leh... nvm nvm... thurs go jog again...

and thatz everything that happened until now... thatz why didnt eat alot for dinner... didnt even feel hungry lah... still damn damn bloated... ahaz... jogging until now i still haven go and bathe.. *opz* dirty me... hahaz.. heck man.. im one lazy piggy.... ahhhh rhapsody in blue damn nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Be more concerned about your CHARACTER then your REPUTATION because your CHARACTER is who you are
And REPUTATION is what others think of you."

shocking me
7:37 PM

yae!!!! finallY!!!!! everything's over!!! actually not... owells but at least the worse is over!!! hahaz... now have to worry bout pw and open house... which will keep me quite busy for this week liaoz... hahaz... thatz good... at least i dun have to worry bout having nothing to do at home... =p

today's fm paper was totally horrible... just keep skipping just keep skipping just keep skipping skipping skipping all i cannot do so skip skip and skip... hahahaz... poor dory... nah... wasnt really that bad... got around 33 marks gone liaoz... hahaz... say bye bye to an A or B... hahaz...

niwaez... went to watch underworld after the paper... nice show!!!! wooow! hahaz..actually every show is nice to me lah... so as long i understand wat the show's about... then can liaoz... hahaz... wah i tink im really into these vampire crap man.. seems to appeal to me.. so cool right!!! hahaz...

then after the movie... went sakae sushi for buffet!!!! wooow another shiok meal man... hahaz... we practically ordered everything on the menu lah... turned to the side dishes section... told the waitress to get one of each... hahaz.. did the same thing for the desserts too... like not shiok! eat until damn damn full... hahaz... then toking crap as usual...

yupz yupz... then got 2 slices of cake for my dad... his bday passed liaoz... last friday.. but he was abroad then... he coming back tonite mah... so thought of buying something for him... since he bought a cosmetic set for me... hahahaz... then guess wat i bought?? bailey cheesecake!!! hahaz... and another dunoe wat mochablahblahblah + tiramisu i tink.. itz coffee lah.. then my dad likes coffee mah... so got tat as well... oolala... later can eat liaoz! hahahaz... *yummy*

hmm then went to hmv... cuz need to get a cd by george gershwin... im playing his piano pieces for the year end concert mah... never even heard of the piece before... hahaz... how to play right... so muz get some research done first... then can play better... neh!! hahaz.. my piano theory is quite bad lah... *opz* but i didnt get it today... no money liaoz... tml then buy lorz... only got 1 cd that has both songs together leh... hahaz... hope tml itz still there...

haiz... lor asked me a qn today... do u intend to get back to him?? which i said no straightaway... then why am i like still so close to him?? i dunoe... aye... i oso tink it isnt a good thing... is it? as in... he cant move on... aye... nvm shant think of these stuff again... let nature take its own course...

jogging is back again!!! muz go jogging liaoz... tml morning it shall be! hahaz... muz keep fit... after this sushi buffet... ooolala.. hahaz... dunoe whether should go airport later to fetch my dad home... feeling abit tired and sianz lah... hahaz... airport... sort of miss the days we spent there studying... hahaz... of course.. excluding the... ehhem... u noe.. yeah... those nightmares... other than tat... it was quite a nice experience... =)

"If you be sugar. I'll be spice. If you be fire, I'll be ice. If you are cold. I'll make you hot.
As long as you give me all you got."

shocking me
7:32 PM

ladidaz... damn sianz... today no happenings at all... stayed at home the whole day... wah.. just realise that i have been drinking herbal stuff every nite since start of promos... hahaz... so far itz bird nest all the way.. then today mum cooked xue3 ge4!!! hahaz... my fav!!! hiek hiek... then it will last for around 2-3 days... wah seh... hahaz... like not song...

yeapz... spent like almost the whole day doing papers... or should i say paper? cuz i only did one... so far.. muz pia until night time liaoz... cuz tonite muz sleep early... hahaz... really cant be bothered by the paper liaoz leh.. how... the whole day i was thinking after fm paper wat should we do... haahz... rl suggested going kayaking... diaoz... so funny... hahaz... but i guess we will just end up walking around aimlessly... maybe pool again... and sakae?? since wx and ph won quite abit from soccer yesterday... on u peeps treat yeah?

hahaz... LoL damn damn sianz... kkk... shall stop saying that... hahaz... tata *TiUbAbOoM*

shocking me
5:20 PM

yosh... another day of mugging muggeroo!!! hahaz... think that sounds nice... owells niwae... yeah went to millenia walk bk to mug... quite a nice place... hahaz... dont ever need to worry tat we will get chased out... so yeah

fm is DAMN irritating!!! argh... a 3 hour paper... im spending like 5-6 hours doing it lah... wat the hell.. really damn tough... got this stupid locus qn... a supposedly easy to understand topic but hard to do... hahaz... dun understand the answer at all... pple... if any of u guys noe... itz the 2000 paper the qn on arg stuff... with the answer sumthing like a circle and a trapezium... yeah... if not just have to resort to asking karseng on monday... hahaz.. still cant believe that he actually did the cm paper TWICE!!! omg... i didnt even have time to finish thinking bout those qn which i cant do...

niwae... after that went to town to meet kev... then along the way ph kept saying wat... eheheh i tink jerris likes u leh... hahaz.. save me from all these crap man... then tell me to go say bye to him before getting down the bus... but itz not like he's sitting at the back of the bus or sumthing... then maybe i will like... wave goodbye, but he's sitting at the front.. how do u expect me to walk all the way there.. say bye.. then walk back... abit funny leh.. hahaz.. so i still didnt =)

ahh.. had my fav wan ton mee!!! hahaz... very very very very long never eat liaoz... still as nice as ever!!! hahahaz... =) yeah... sort of did some catching up stuff with kev... alamak... u guys dun kill me okay... aye sort of stuck in between... i tink my classmates wana watch infernal affairs 2 on monday or someday lah... then kev wana go watch on tuesday... hahahaz... uh oh... cuz he said if we didnt watch on my bday... i have to watch with him... hahahaz... sorry guys... well i dun mind watching it again with u all =p saved quite some allowance this week... so can spare the money... hahaz...

after everything... he sent me home as usual... just that we didnt take mrt... hahaz... took bus for a change... long time never take bus along that route liaoz mah... he gave me a hug before going off... a really big one... hahahaz... hope that makes him feel better... =)

some interesting parts : ph said that his fren.. aka dunoe how to spell her name... nvm hahaz... niwae yeah she saw me and ph walking together to the pools during swimming finals... then tot i was his gf... ?! diaoz... hahahaz... yeah frenz can oso go out together wat right??? hahahaz...

hmm... got quite a good analysis from sherlyn's blog on whether one should be loved or to love somebody... wow... sherlyn.. if they give an essay on that u sure score man!!! hahahaz... just kidding... but quite true.. after reading wat she wrote... set me thinking bout alot of stuff... hahaz... niwae.. shall go and bathe first... ciaozZZZzzzzzz

"No one has ever loved anyone, The way everyone wants to be loved."

shocking me
7:58 PM

yoyo watzup baby?? hahaz... yeah! finally... left with fm... hahaz... math paper was okay lah.. although got quite a few qns i dunoe... aye... tink minus around 16 marks liaoz... A going to fly away liaoz... hahaz...

owells... but after the paper felt damn shiok! hahaz... although abit sianz... cuz our whole class splitted up again... sherlyn wee xin and terina went to eat ajisen... but wx me and lor thought it was abit ex... so went to yoshi instead... then rl keith and lubin they all went to play soccer i tink... aye.. so sad right.. everybody so separated... -_-"

niwae... things got better... we wanted to go classic to play pool... but there was such a strong smell of... errr.. paint? turpentine? watever lah... yeah... even inside the pool area oso got lah.. i wonder how the pple inside tahan... cuz there's quite alot of vj pple there... hahaz.. niwae so we went to mega instead... then got poisoned again... hahahaz...

then... itz mahjong time again!!! hahaz... called ph along to get all 4 pple... then went to lor's house to play mj... like not song... hahaz... got abit high and blur as the game passes on... i really didnt realise that i hit that shuo4 out lah! *sorry wx and ph* cuz lor was limiting already... then i tink they said bao1 shuo4 zi3... i guess i wasnt really concentrating... so didnt even noe that i threw one out and then she gamed... hahahaz... 3.20... ouch...

but luckily... overall didnt lose alot... just 1.40... as compared to poor ph... hahahaz... owells but at least all his luck went to his math paper... according to him.. i dun mind paying to get high marks... hahahahaz... thatz like not crap... aye... tml gotta start chionging papers again... like not sianz... the jerris guy oso need help in fm... so i guess itz almost the same pple for the study group tml and sunday... hahahaz... oh... really hope my 2 math buddies can score well for the math paper... yah guys! all the way! =)

hahaz.. dunoe why i was actually counting the number of pple i noe or heard who was from vs... got around 26... damn bo liaoz... shall list them down... kev, jeremy, hm, keith, adrin, kw, julian, yadin, ziyu, sam, alan, df, kenneth, my bro, kev's bro, jw, shawn(lor's senior * i actually still remember haha), marcus, jerris, theodor, alex, zw, favian, javin, benson, jonathon( sherlyn's ehhem)... hahaz... i tink thatz all i can tink of... sure got more lah... hahaz... owells damn sianz

"Follow your own heart, Not others."

shocking me
7:18 PM

ladidaz... im a goner.. physics lytt chem lytt... hahaz.. thou shall not talk about sciences any more... anyway im only interested in math =) hahz... tatz why im damn happy now!!!! only left math papers!!!! yeah!! all the way man! hahaz...

niwae... yesterday was chatting with kev online... and guess wat?! his fren, st (which i still prefer to call mao1 lian3) hahaz... catface *opz* just kidding yah... niwae yeah he's in mj too... and he's in the same class as xj!!! omg... wat a small world man... and he told kev that the guy admitted that he like me... hahaha... how disgusting can it get man... *puke* sorry not say i wana discriminate against anybody... but him.... ahahaha... i cry ar...

yeapz... tml is cm paper... relaxing... can sleep early early today liaoz... hahaz... i tink later maybe wana go jogging too... i tink u all tink im siaoz right... go jogging at this period of time... hahaz.. who cares... hmm.. but still cannot be complacent... better go do some revision.... cya...

shocking me
12:43 PM

hahaz.. k guys i shall start paragraphing... =) today's one horrible day man... first thing in the morning rain... then rain whole day... like not saddening... hahaz

physics was terrible, i was taking my time lah, until i realise that i only have 1 hour left for section C, which was actually still enough, but i left only 30 min after doing the first qn! 30 min to do 2 qns which is around 40 marks lah!!! that point of time, i just went cranky... only thing i can guarantee is correct is the definitions of shm, and maybe gravitational pe *aye*

after tat went bk to eat lunch... tried the new greenbean turnover, not too bad, but didnt really have the mood to enjoy it... cuz was still very disappointed in myself for not finishing the paper... argh!!! lost like at least 20 marks there lah... dunoe wat i was writing at all, at all!!! nvm... actually why am i so frustrated? itz just promos!!! at most dun take s papers lorz... live a simple life, go work in some cafe for the rest of my life... hahaz... well i dun mind =)

right then... had chinese in the afternoon, was quite alright, oh guess wat i wrote for compo?? the topic was to tok bout a difficult decision u made lah... then i tok bout rj and vj... haha... changed abit from wat really happened to me, said wat i dunoe whether i should appeal to stay in rj or go vj... yeah... think should sound quite interesting right? i hope... hahaz... then had a splitting headache when doing paper 2... nearly fell asleep reading the compre lah... hahaz.. was trying very hard not to, plus okay not to criticise him or anything, but i dunoe wat adrin was doing behind lah, he kept on tapping on the floor, then the floor vibrate, then i got abit irritated lah... maybe itz the chair's fault i dunoe, just felt annoyed...

so.. itz left with chem cm and fm... i tink i will die for chem too... just hope i wont die until too horribly... wish me and everybody good luck =)

"The love you lost is love you gave, The love you have is love you saved..."

shocking me
7:03 PM

ohayo!!! welcome to my blog with new blogskin!!! hahaz... guess watz this blogskin called? blanched almond caramel cream!!! hahaz... makes me tink of food... and caramel frappucino!!! hahaz... thatz why i chose it... yeapz...spent like 1 hour searching for a nice skin... cuz the nicest one provided by the webbie was already taken up!! by kevin... hahaz... itz damn nice! although abit dark... owells then spent another hour on editing the templates... wah... this is the first time i touch on html stuff since sec 2 lah... hahaz... thatz why need one hour right... considered quite fast liaoz leh... hahaz... *sense of accomplishment* well the only stuff left to do is to get a tagboard and to get a background music! that i will need help from kev... aka i realise that im getting him to do stuff for me again... *aye* why am i such a useless bum who only noes how to take him for granted?? *hate myself* jeremy's right... don't u ever come back to me!!! hahaz... shit lah.. why am i doing this now when i always have the time to do it after my promos?? i guess im just to sianz already.. mugging mugging mugging all day... like not sianz... nvm nvm... still have to do it... piaing physics today... haven started memorising any stuff for chem yet leh... i hope i can get everything into my head in one night... hope hope...

"The sound of a kiss is not so loud as a cannon, But it's echo lasts a great deal longer!"

shocking me
8:14 AM

yo~ had gp paper today... hope i can do well in my paper one... the topic was should criminals be given a second chance? woow itz like almost my pw topic lah... serving with conviction... hahahaz... song bo... but just hope i didnt write out of point... paper 2 was like shit lah... can die... totally dunoe wat passage B is toking about... i just read the passage for the sake of reading it lah... hahaz.. then didnt finish the application question... as expected... well at least i got 1 and a half point written down... better than nothing, hahaz... oh guess wat, that guy called me when i was on the way home... i was in my mum's car lah... was half expecting it to be from him lorz... argh!!! shouldnt have answered it man... damn it, he asked hows my gp paper lah... then i just kept saying okay lorz okay lorz... ahhhhhhhh im seriously going to limit break soon lorz... come on!!! give me an omnislash!!! hahahaz... tatz ff7... owells, last nite kev called... at first he didnt say who he was.. then i really dunoe who... hahahaz.. die lah.. mug until cannot recognise his voice liaoz... supposedly quite good in that one leh... nvm... yeah he wished me all the best too! hahaz... toked to py yesterday nite too... long time never tok to her liaoz... yeah!! she say she going to organise outing for me kev tere and her together... hahaz... usual gang lah... then go celebrate my belated bday... she forgotten about it... hahahaz... as expected... wat can i say =) hahaz... hmm going to mug chem liaoz... tml then mug physics... should i mug chinese? dun feel like... but feel obliged to... maybe i will just bring notes and study from 11 to 2 lah... hahaz...

"I can never find the right words to say, but you're the one I think about each day.
No matter where this life takes me to, I'll always be the one who'll be missing you."

shocking me
12:57 PM

ello blog... how are u? im damn sianz... hahaz... just came back from jogging... before that was deciding whether to jog or not, but my determination still rulz hahaz, so i went jogging, die stamina deprove liaoz, 2 weeks never jog become lytt liaoz, hahaz, nvm there's still alot of chance to train up after promos, hmm i tink i will go and jog again on tuesday, no paper on that day mah, hahaz... woow feel like part of the stress is being sweat out, quite shiok... hahaz, after staying at home the whole day reading through gp notes... owells, tml is the start... and hope everything ends fast... good luck everybody! all da best! =)

shocking me
6:59 PM

hmm.. came back with new thoughts, that is, it is better to be loved than to love someone. =) seriously, it is hard to love someone, well unless the other person loves u as much as u do to him/her. but normally that aint the case, just feel very foolish that i gave up such a relationship... iznt it?

shocking me
7:47 PM

back from mugging again, hmm i tink i shud stop putting so many dots, looks very weird i realise, hahaz... actually didnt intend to go out and study today, but in the end we still did, the usual gang except marc and shawn, cuz they have to stay at home and mug bio, hahaz... i hate bio man, dun understand why pple choose to take it... owells, georgie called me this morning and sang me a belated birthday song, woow he composed it himself leh! damn zai right, at first i thought he will just sing happy birthday to u, happy birthday to u... but he actually wrote a song lah, hahaz... quite touched, going to send me the lyrics someday, argh, that guy messaged me again, just! for goodness sake... spare me the agony!!! he asked if wana go study tml, of course i said no, then guess wat he replied? "K. Tml b praying for vjcians" wtf?! okay lah i appreciate his concern for us, but this iznt the way to show it... wah itz the first few times i get so pissed with christians, okay sweeping statement, itz only him HIM and HIM... right, chatting with cx now... aye, well at least we are still quite close frenz, oh i tink i said wrongly last time, he's leaving on the 17th not 19th, which is before open house! aye... so i guess i wont have any chance of seeing him again, only between the period from after promos to open house lorz, *haiz* nvm nvm... really dunoe wat im thinking, throughout the day, there will be times i tink about kev, actually quite alot of times, but then when i see cx, everything is like... just him... ai yah dunoe lah, this kind of lifestyle now also quite good lah, free and easy... hahaz, then lorraine will always rebutt when i say that, "im sure!!" hahaz... dun have such low confidence on me mah, itz almost 1 month since the last breakup liaoz... i guess it will stay lytt for sometime... crapz why am i toking bout this again? nvm nvm smiles! +)

shocking me
7:29 PM

*tiredness* im beginning to lose the momentum liaoz... of mugging... hahaz... went to siglap starbucks to mug... went quite early... ordered a mocha ice blended... nice! hahaz... then went to eat bread toast for lunch... i ordered french toast... damn nice! hahaz... plus the butter and kaya spread on it.. woow power... then went back to starbucks... ordered another err oh roast beef mushroom melt or something lytt... itz something like a sandwich lah.. but itz oso damn power! although very hard to eat lah... hahaz... cuz the beef very hard to cut... should have juz eaten everything using my fingers... nvm... oh then comes the interesting bit.. we saw 2 dunman girls walking into starbucks lah... then one of them looked like jm... not me lah... hahaz... jiamin... rl's ehhem... hahaz... she's very sweet looking... no wonder rl like lah... hahaz... at first me and lor were not sure if she's jm or not... then she and her fren went to the toilet... which was just behind us lah... then when she went in and her fren stood outside... i went to ask the fren lah... then before i even finish asking she said yah she's jm.. hahaz.. cuz i tink they heard wat me and lor were discussing... as in lor mentioned the name jiamin quite loudly i guess... hahahaz... owells... i bet they must have alot of question marks here and there... hmm was chatting with rl online... he said our class like forming cliques liaoz... aye... i guess itz inevitable... when i was in sec school oso lytt one... there's sure to be one bunch of frenz whom u are the closest with... just that pple start toking bad bout each other... *opZ* not accusing anybody here... but i tink sometimes i do that too... ahh feel quite guilty if i look back... cuz itz not very good to do so neh... kz... shall remain more neutral nxt time... but sometimes if we dun gossip here gossip there life seems to be very sianz... hahahz... itz quite a good conversation topic oso mah... diaoz... why am i weighing both sides of some arguement here? die... must be too affected by ms low liaoz... hahaz... her application question answering technique... list 2 points from each passage... must have both sides of the arguement... then blah blah blah... hahahaz... crapz* actually quite worried for my gp... 3 more days!!!! die die die... hahaz... i tink im like mugging even more than when i was for Os lah... so ironic right... itz just promos!!!! but i guess everybody wana do well oso right... aye... i was thinking.. so wat if i study so much... got use lah... but not everything... just want a simple life... see the pple working in starbucks and gelare today... looking quite carefree oso... i dun mind just going to work in some cafe for the rest of my life until retire lah... hahaz... abit not ambitious right... owells... i fine with anything actually... haahz... here goes the anything thing again...

shocking me
8:16 PM

yo~ pretty normal day today... went to airport and study again... this time we didnt get chased out... whew... hahaz... niwae weekdays not so many pple mah... me and lor reached there first... then rl came... followed by shawn and wx together... marcus came in the early afternoon... owells more or less the same gang lah... just that rl returned home earlier to run his scripts or watever again... hahaz... they all lost in yesterday's soccer bettings... see lah... the uncertainty is so high lorz... wat for take the risk right... hahaz.... owells... then xj called me again... he asked me if vj got study break... itz like not duh that we have lah... since he asked that qn... then asked me for how long then lytt finish... bye bye... hahaz... like not bo liaoz... really waste my phone bill man... then we saw xingying... one of the girls in the east study group thingy lah... then wx and lor were like... hahaz.. u die liaoz... she will call xj and tell him that u are at the airport then he will come down and find u lah... i was praying not lorz... but... it still happened... argh!!! he came down... met his usual group of frenz lorz... wah all of us were damn disgusted lah... then wx and lor was calling ph to come down and act as my bf... hahahaz... diaozZzzz... shawn oso buay song him... cuz they both from ahs one mah... then xj actually came and asked him if he was from ahs lah... but shawn said no... hahahaz... smart answer man... owells... lucky he never come and tok to me or watever liaoz lorz... then when ph came he tok alot of crap lah... saying out all the ways of getting him off my back... hahaz... realise tat arya william and ph belong to the same type of ri guys man... hahahaz... still remembered william called me when they were all at arya's house... at first i tot it was ph lah... then realise it was william... hahaz... as usual we were toking cock on the phone... he noes that i dun have caller id... then tried to trick me say wat congratulations, u have won the music award watever crap... hahahaz... so funny... just like wat ph did to yvonne lah... see wat i mean... hahahaz... owells then left at around 6 for home... shawn was turning damn red lah... he finished one whole bottle of vodka... with ice lah... hahaz... like not song... i tried a few sips... power! itz ice coffee flavoured... hmm... wat else happened... oh yesterday nite i was toking to kev on the phone again... this time until 1 am lah... hahaz... like not late... but we started late lah... then this morning felt quite tired lorz... had a serious headache when i first reached the airport... but it got better... guess itz cuz of the lack of sleep...

shocking me
8:05 PM

yosh... finally home... alright... i guess i should start right from yesterday night... first wx messaged me online... hahaz... then i received sherlyn's sms... then followed by kev's call... rl's msg and etc... that started my bday off quite well... was quite happy when kev called... *opz* yeah... then went to school as usual... oh cx gave me a prezzie during the break... thatz my first... and the only present i received... so was quite touched... although it was nothing much... =) then throughout the day had been received smses from alot of pple lah... and i wana thank them again! thanks for remembering my bday... hahaz... best was marc lah... called me during math lect... said oh happy bday then bye bye... hahaz... owells and alot of pple wished me happy bday in school oso... wooow didnt noe my bday was so well known... hahaz... thanks oso... after our math tut... our class had inertia again lah... then stayed in the classroom deciding where to go... i guess none of us were keen on watching infernal affairs 2... so we decided not to watch liaoz... but go fish and co and eat dinner! hahaz... yummy yummy! was feeling quite sianz liaoz lorz... cuz none of them wana go anywhere after school... as in other than dinner lah... so ended up with lor in the canteen mugging again... but lucky wx suggested playing pool.. so we went pooling! hahaz... went to see uncle at monster... long time never see him liaoz mah... then later we met ph and yvonne at the glasshouse... sort of reminded me of last sunday... on the way there george actually called me man... hahaz... his voice is damn power... as in he's a good singer... then he said he wrote me this bday song... then wanted to sing to me leh... wooow but i told him to call another time lah... was walking along the road... so cant really hear properly mah... hahaz... well had seafood platter for 2 again... but this time shared among the 3 girls lah... hahaz... we finished it in no time man... this time we ordered the special freezer drinks only available at the glasshouse... wah itz damn power! woow the dunoe wat sea monkey thingy is damn nice lah... hahaz... then ph picked the jungle dunoe wat thingy... oso not bad... had a good chat with the 5 of them... although most of the time they were toking bout soccer bettings lah... hahaz... seems quite interesting.. but not for me... hahaz... after dinner... we went to ps and walk around... deciding where to have desserts... then ended up at wheelock place for nydc... but realise nydc got chao alot of pple... so we went to Big O instead... saw ph's 2 elder sis there.. wooow both oso quite chio neh! hahaz... then had a mudpie a waffle icecream and a bailey's cheesecake! the cheesecake is nice man... cuz itz bailey flavoured... hahaz... i still remember the first time i tried the bailey ice cream was with kev at haagan dazz... owells then we finally splitted up and went home... wanted to take cab with ph wx and yvonne lah... but we waited for so damn long for one stupid cab that we still ended up taking a bus lah... which doesnt go to my house... but bishan... then from there me and wx took cab home... hahahaz... like not stupid right... owells i guess i was abit irritated already... somemore was feeling quite tired liaoz... hahaz... but here i wana thank yvonne ph wx rl and lor for celebrating my bday with me... although lor was mugging all the way while we were at monster... and rl was shivering all the way while we were in the glasshouse... hope u guys had fun... and thanks for like taking this time out to hang around lah... feel very bad cuz promos so near.. then u all still went out and play with me... thanks alot guys... oh and thanks wx for ur treat... hahahz... i treat u back nxt time alright! yeapz when i reached home... then got another cake waiting for me... hahaz... my mum dad and younger bro celebrated my bday for me lorz... my mum bought this coffee cake from bangawan solo... wooow damn nice oso! hahahaz... my mum saw the prezzie cx gave me... then questioned me like siao again lah... say woow bf give one right... then of course i said no... then my mum was like... sure or not.. then wat bout kevin leh? gosh... i dunoe wat to say lah.. then my dad say find someday bring him back and interrogate him lah... aye... at that split second... i was thinking bout wat would it be like if i really brought kev back to see my parents... owells... nvm nvm... then finally after that... im back here... blogging again... hahaz... oh... yesterday actually read marc's blog... he sent me the link cuz he wanted me to read his latest entry mah... which was bout me... hahaz.. thanks thanks... browsed through some of his photos too... saw a few familiar faces... but cant remember who are they... prob some ex vs guys again... hahaz... was quite surprised that marc actually go jamming... he plays the base... sounds damn pro right... hahaz... cx just called me not long ago... was quite surprised then... hahaz... the moment he speak i knew it was him... he sounded quite tired... hope he will take care... he's leaving singapore on the 19th of october... coming back on 12th november... thatz like almost a month... aye... so sad... niwae tml itz airport time again... meeting lor and marc at 10.30 there... like not early... but not as if i will wake up late... ahahaz... yeapz~ thatz all... woow first time type such a long entry... hahaz... ^^)

shocking me
11:57 PM