right... so im back here again... im really feeling very down now... itz 12.30am now... hahaz... guess itz the only place i can throw everything at... wateva... right... i really felt like crying throughout the whole concert today... first... my 3 sort of best frenz i ever had... pang se me... first is py and tere... i dun blame tere lah... i did such things to his "bro"... dun expect him to forgive me so easily... py's the best fren i've ever had lah... for the past few years... i oso cant blame her... she got stuff on... nvm... so since the 2 of them cant make it... kev oso dun wana come liaoz... itz the first time i felt so lonely during a concert... during the interval... everybody else's toking to their frenz... either piano ensemble members... or juz the public... watever... then i juz sit down there... stoning... alone... right... how wonderful is that... nvm... the best thing i ever got for that nite... was the call from him... to say good nite... i noe it was juz the same old routine... but at least that cheered me up...for a few seconds... hahaz...

shocking me
12:37 AM

ok i've had enough of this blog thingy... first is my ex... now is him... and my frenz who are reading this... watever... sometimes it iznt good to let the whole world noe bout ur inner feelings... my ex read my blog and totally lost faith in me... then went to jio another girl... he read my blog and cant stop saying sorry... wat kind of crap is this... (im not blaming anybody).. right and my frenz read my blog and start suaning me... fine i quit...

shocking me
8:21 PM

yoyoyo! hahaz... school's quite tough today... except for the chem lecture... hehe... when the girls wanted to sit at the lower rows in lt5 right... my mind was like running wild... ahhh... cuz me and him agreed to sit together during chem lect... hahaz... but in the end we still sat together... yeah! hahaz we toked about a lot of stuff man... got to know him a bit better! hahaz... shows some progress... aye... i bet im sure gonna miss him alot nxt week... oh... today was the first time the math mentoring stuff started... at first was quite slack lah... cuz the pple assigned to my table never come... then i juz sat there messaging him... hahaz... then came 2 guys... wah... really had a hard time with them man... this one ask finish the nxt one ask... never ending... explain until my throat damn dry liaoz... hahaz... one's called schon the other's john... i dunoe whether they are faking the names or not lah... cuz apparently they were laughing the hell out... hahaz... nvm nvm... juz take it as that... yah... then that john guy... kept on asking qns i never thought of before one lah... wah... damn malu lorz... hahaz... then i there... stuck... hahaz... nvm nvm... actually the 2 of them look quite cute... but nah... no sparks... oso not my type... hahaz... sherlyn said maybe i tinking of him too much liaoz... other guys dun appeal much to me... hahahaz.... i dunoe i dunoe... i will rather have a female mentee lorz... so much nicer... then the teacher send me not 1 guy right... but 2... hahaz... like not cham.. nxt time muz tell jeremy to help me teach one of them too... cuz he doing 1 on 1 with adrin... oh well... hahaz... my arm muscles still aching alot... these few days schedule damn tight... especially weekends... on 2nd of august i have damn alot of stuff on lorz... either i go for science carnival or sailing in the morning... then at night either i go for bbq or qing4 gong1 yan4 for rgco... hahaz... so busy... i wish i could go for all man... but juz happen everything falls on the same day... owells... feel like getting him sumting before he goes off on sunday.. but i dunoe wat to get... and even if i got anything... have to give him by friday... hahaz... which is tml... alamak... why didnt i tink of doing so earlier... hahaz... nvm nvm... juz hope that we can continue sitting together during chem & physics lecture... i will be more than satisfied liaoz... =)

shocking me
7:26 PM

tiredness... juz came back from sailing... hahaz... today's wind's quite strong... capsized more than 10 times... miracle that i still can flip the boat over after the 10th time... hahaz... shows that i've grown stronger! hahaz... *flexing muscles* hahahaz... aye... yesterday he told me... that we'd juz be frenz for the moment... actually we had been frenz lah... but for the first few days he brought so much hope to me... as in like... we were getting closer lah... hahaz... then suddenly degenerated... hahaz... not sure whether thatz the correct word to use... heck... yah... but we are still going on fine... =) oh yah... i really love this song lorz... here it goes...
oh love's in the air, itz everywhere
everyone can see, everyone can feel
that love's in the air, it doesn't matter where
everyone agrees, love is all we need
when the moon falls in ur eyes
i know the sun has set
the fire still burns within me
since the day we met
i know my heaven would be so complete
u can make it real
i wont let this chance go by
i can see, i can feel you....
im not sure of the exact lyrics... but this is wat i figured out from listening to the song lah... itz exactly how im feeling now... hahaz... still got the chinese part... hahaz... feel like singing it to him... hahaz... nah... oh dear... i tink i really sound damn despo... nvm nvm... yeah... u noe the winning group of the talentime in rj right... the girl sang this song... with another guy at the side playing the guitar parts... wah... her voice is really damn sweet and nice lorz... they got her to sing during the chinese new year celebrations too... hahaz... really damn power... so made me feel like achieving that too... hahaz... =)

shocking me
8:44 PM

yo~ had another horrible day with my stupid fone spoilt right from the morning... hahaz... crapz.. stupid siemens phone... lucky i encountered this problem b4... was worrying the whole day... until i remembered how to reset the factory settings... damn chim one... there iznt an option to do so in the phone... muz type some stuff one.. hahaz... yah lorz... hahaz... well at least it didnt feel tat bad when i was sitting with him during physics lecture... at first i tot nah... i dun tink we will sit together again... hahaz... he was already sitting with his class... so i went to sit with my class lorz... then later he suddenly moved up to sit beside lubin and lorraine they all... i take it that he's initiating sumting... hahahaz... i dunoe... then since lorraine oso call me up... so i went up oso lorz... =) dunoe why cant really tink of anything to say... maybe still very shy lorz... first time sit beside him during lecture mah... hahaz... niwae itz a great start... yeah... so tiring... got alot of hw to do... hahaz... tml only one math lecture.. so cant really tok much with him... aye... hahaz... my gp sux leh... how... have to go for extra lessons liaoz... i tink that cindy low really biased against ph... hahaz.. he got almost the same marks as me for the grammer sections... but the teacher called him to go... never call me to go... hahaz... but i wana go lah... muz start to brush up my english liaoz... =p today juz received the dates for the promos... like not early.. hahaz... so sad... 6 days after my bday then start gp exam liao... hahaaz... nvm nvm... still can celebrate lah... hahaz... suddenly remembered i owe 2 of my exclassmates 5 bucks each... and i owe another a lunch... cuz i bet with them last year that me and kev will last until end of this year... hahahaz... nvm nvm... i guess they were right after all... lol... oh... forgot to tell u all about the origins of the title of the blog... i first saw my sp type *tiubaboom* when i was chatting with him on icq... hahaz... then i tot it sounded quite cool... so i always remembered it... hahahaz.. yeah... my sp very nice to me... still remember that time he gave me this heart shaped balloon on valentine's day... but no meaning one lah... hahaz... he looks more like my bro... yah lorz... hahaz.. then i was carrying it around sentosa... then all my other sailing frenz all look at me in envy...hiek hiek... cuz their sps never give them anything lytt... hahaz... gtg eat dinner liaoz... ciaozZzz~~

shocking me
6:57 PM

yosh... first day living under the suans of my frenz... hahaz... already can die liaoz... still got a long way to go man... imagine everyday oso lytt... hahahaz... well... it adds spices to my boring life though... =p hahaz... my class suddenly went blog crazy... everybody's creating a blog... now we even suggested on a class blog lorz.. hahaz... i tink itz a cool idea... yeah man... way to go bloggers! hahahaz... had a go at lorraine and sherlyn's blog... quite nice... hahaz... i realise we all tok alot about guys... hahahaz... yeah... felt quite awkward alot of times today... like to approach him or juz stick with my class... cuz the moment i approach him right... *suan suan suan* so sour!!! hahahaz... yah lorz... then at first we agreed on sitting together during chem lecture... then in the end he pai seh... i oso pai seh... then we juz sat near each other on diff rows... hahahaz... aye.. nvm nvm... someday it will work... someday... hahaz... dunoe have to go lyk this for how long siaz... *yawnz* had been tired the whole day... normally on monday by the 2nd math lecture i would have been sleeping all the way liaoz lorz... this time... i didnt sleep... got lah... for a few minutes... hahaz... today got this mystery person messaged during lecture and said... stop looking at cx lah... then i was like ?! then got another one... wat dun drool watever can see ur saliva liaoz... then i was like even ?!?!?!?!?!?! then when i asked the person who he/she was... no reply... wat the ?! cuz i lost all my contacts liaoz mah... hmm... then i checked with sherlyn liaoz... not anybody from my class leh... dunoe who siaz... hmm... hahaz... nvm lah... aye... dunoe whether have to do booth duty for the rest of the week or not... really can die lorz... nobody come and patronise one... watz the use of setting it there... then chanks still say nvm... no sales nvm... im sure the public's reaction will be quite good... hahaz... chao optimistic siaz... lucky today he was sitting near me chatting with me... if not really can be bored to death one lorz... sitting there staring into blank space... hahahaz...

shocking me
6:36 PM

ahh... another tiring day... hahaz... feeling damn full now... tink dun have to eat lunch the whole week liaoz... i din count the number of dishes but it seems like a 12 dish dinner i tink... hahaz... my grandma's bday today... so we went restaurant to eat... hahahaz... i got one cousin eat until he puked everything out... poor boy... hahaz... then in the morning had co prac... aye... from nxt sunday onwards until the day of our concert we will be having full day practices... like until 5 plus lorz... like not long... aye... hahaz... well at least for my instrument i only need to play all the accompaniments... the erhuz play the main tune... hahahz... so cham man... wateva... so actually today quite sian day for me... hahaz... so was feeling quite surprised when he called me juz to listen to my voice... hehe... i was feeling quite extra then cuz i was with my co chairman and her stead... yeah... but we are all good frenz lah.. hahaz... then he called... hmm... tml will be long day... oh shoot!!! crap have to reach school at 7... practice live ad... and then we will have to do the real thing tml morning at assembly... ahhhhh... really can die... the whole live ad thing is damn lame lah... hahaz... die die die... then my class standing infront some more... will kena suan like mad... hahaz... imagine one bunch of girls chasing after 5566... then after that act like little kids swinging around idiotically... oh man... hahaz... nvm nvm... itz all for the concert... hahaz... so as long itz effective can liaoz... which i dun tink will do much to improve our sales anyway.... hahahaz... hope so... oh well... need to start learning how to cook... hahahaz... other than maggie mee or cup noodles... hahaz... i can fry an egg too... hahaz... crap... cant bake any stuff... my house dun have oven... hahaz... ahhh... lytt how to cook for him... hahahaz... feel so shi1 bai4... hahaz... nvm... shall start stealing some cooking skills from my mum... hiek hiek... =)

shocking me
10:21 PM

wow... juz toked to him for like 1 hour plus... and i din even realise... hahaz... i dunoe whether i can still express all my feelings here anymore... but i'll try lah... was quite scary after i knew that he read my blog... was expecting it... but... oh well... *whining whining* hahaz... been irritating my classmates with that whining stuff the whole day... until they cant be bothered with me liaoz... hahaz... well... was quite surprised that me and him like... progress until so fast... hahaz... i dunoe... told him that i will think about it for 1 night then give him an answer... the main concerns i have is that... firstly... my ex lah... i tink he will feel damn sad if i like go with another guy after breaking up with him for only 2 weeks... it juz iznt fair to him... and itz not as if we had only been together for a short while... 1 year iznt that short... secondly... i dunoe whether the relationship will work... i mean... i hardly really know him lorz... maybe itz juz a crush... or infatuation... i tink each of us will need time to work things out before we get started... i tink itz the first time that i sort of like a guy more than the guy likes me... im aiming for this kind of relationship... hahaz... u noe why... then i will be the one hurting the most if things doesnt work out... hahahaz... then at least i wont feel so bad... right... i hate being the bad guy... yeah... good... i shall do so... hahaz... maybe i shud tok less about me and him... then wont be so embarassing... ahhhh... i tink any guy who saw this will be like scared off or watever lorz... hahaz... but i was really relieved that he didnt... if not i will be very sad.... *sobz sobz*... hahaz... oh well... today is my niece's bday!!! hahaz... happy birthday pp!!! thatz her nick... hahaz... so cute right... 1 year old only... hahaz... first time picking a bday cake for somebody's bday leh... ahhahaz.... yeah me and my cousin went four leaves to buy one... hehe... dunoe why... feeling especially happy today... =)

shocking me
11:33 PM

ahhhh... horrible horrible day... ok if sherlyn or lorraine or weixiong is reading this now... u better get out of here before i kill u... and... erm if "he" is reading this now... pls pls... dun read on... kk... right...
ok pple may be wondering watz going on... well... today i went to lorraine's house to slack after going to rg... and... i mean i told sherlyn and lorraine bout my new blog cuz like... good frenz mah... shud noe bout it lah... but dun read it infront of me right!!!! i din realise that they were reading my blog lah... cuz i was lying on the bed reading my yearbook... argh... then lorraine wanted to send this webbie to him... i tot she was juz kidding... so i din stop her.... then... ahhhhhhhh... feel like dying... die die die die die... i bet he will tink im some crazy women who is like seriously lacking of love or sumting... ok... hope he saw the mail i sent... hehe i counteracted her mail with my mail... hiek hiek... hope it works though... aye... ok.. back to normal... right... nobody i noe is reading the blog.... nobody.... argh!!! cant stop tinking about it... die die die die die.. how how... okok relaxing... nvm nvm... niwae today we danced mass dance after our dismissal... hahaz... so fun!!! long time never dance liaoz... saw him dancing too... hahahaz... so funny... then went for the interview stuff... hahaz... the pple there all very nice leh... although all ex-drug addicts... hahaz... juz remembered wat sherlyn said... so i guess they are all gays... since homosexuals are very nice pple according to her... hahaz... wateva... yeah... hahaz.. first time reach home so early... barely 4... hahaz... argh!!!!! im still tinking about it... i juz thought that everything will juz screw up between me and him... like... until not even see-see-smile-frenz... hahaz.. new term... see-see-smile-frenz and the see-dun-smile-frenz hahahahaz... nvm nvm... lazy to change to another blog... so will juz stick to this... pple mentioned at the start... pls hor... dun ehhhheeem.... i noe u all sure continue reading one... aye... nvm nvm =)

shocking me
4:56 PM

hahaz... had another long and tiring day... hehe... he gave this funny face with his tongue sticking out of the corner of his lips during maths lecture... so cute! hahahaz... die... i tink im obsessed liaoz... hahaz... yesh...2 more days before i can get my sim card back... hiek hiek hiek... hahaz... the sailors juz pulled me to go be qm... juz becoz they dun wana take care of the equipments right... my fren say actually after they bought the new equipments the lockers like became damn messy... then nobody wana clear the mess right... hahaz... nvm nvm... hope i wont get the post... hahaz... but oso feel like getting the post... hahaz... cuz it will make me feel more into the sailing team... if not i like not anywhere lytt in the team.... hahaz... i tink my mood fluctuate alot during the day... hahaz... dunoe why... then now my classmates who noe that im single liaoz suan me like wat... hahaz... today got this unknown guy from my chinese class sat beside me... but he was there before i was there.. my bag was there and i went to the toilet mah... then when i came back he was sitting beside me liaoz... maybe cuz he thought nobody sitting there mah... then that stupid ph asked me... eh u noe him ar... then i said no... then he was like... hahaz... i tink he likes u lah... thatz why sit beside u right... hahaz... then i was like... wat the?! hahaz... nowadays gp lessons are really getting out of hand... especially with that new gp teacher right... hahaz... can die... but oso quite fun lah... maybe cuz she is young... all my other classmates think that she is bitchy... cuz she was from kc... hahaz... no offence... to me everybody is the same one lah.. hahaz... oh yeah... college day the s2 s3 and arts fac will be in lt3... for 2 hours plus i tink... then.. he will be there too!!! hahaz... unless he pon lorz... then i sad... hahaz... then will feel damn sianz again... hahaz...

shocking me
9:25 PM

hahaz... feeling damn shagged today... juz reached home... ahh... thinking about him the whole day lorz... aye... today only saw him during math lecture... then oso never tok... so sad... hahaz... sherlyn is going crazy i tink... she kept on pushing me over to sit with him... tink she getting irritated... hahaz... aye... was hoping that he would go for the track n field finals too... but he didnt... well at least i didnt see him anywhere.... think maybe he got training lorz... thatz why i was looking damn sian the whole time there... going crazy... hahaz... if he was there everything will be different... hahaz... sherlyn was like... u wana noe if he is here or not?? i can ask my fren in 34... hahaz... in the end she did... and then the fren said nah... he didnt... then wah... so disppointed... aye... hahaz... i tink we arnt getting anywhere lytt... especially now without phone... cant even sms... then we dun even tok to each other much face to face... hahaz... quite sad... aye... i tink he likes his ex more than me.... hahaz... which is quite duh... hahaz... *heart broken* nvm.... can see him everyday in school can liaoz... tml got 2 lectures...hehe... so can see him more often!!! hahahaz... especially chem lectures... thatz the only time i can sit so near him.... hahahaz... last time i totally hate lectures... now itz like... wah! hahahaz.... starting to hate tutorials now... hahahaz.... gave him my house phone number yesterday... dunoe whether he received the message... or maybe i remembered his number wrongly... hahahaz... i hope not... it was so wonderful to get him to call and say goodnite... for friday and saturday... hahahaz.... he really sound damn cute on the phone... was so surprised and happy to receive the first call from him... the nite i juz broke with kev... aye... like normally when me and kev say goodnite we juz sms... dun really tok much on the fone... hahaz... nvm nvm... tatz all in the past... =)

shocking me
9:07 PM

ahh... dunoe why... everytime i see him... i will automatically be so hyperactive... hahaz... during physics lecture i saw him... then i juz cant stop toking... until the lecturer scolded us... hahaz... opz... but serious... i cant help it... juz one look at him cheers me up... hehe... then later i went for the swimming finals... this was the first time i ever like went for these kind of support stuff juz to see 1 person... hahaz... him... juz for that event... i juz cant take my eyes off him all the time... oh... muz really say that he's got a damn good figure... hahaz... feeling quite off... cuz my figure is like.... as compared to his... hahaz... was hoping that he wud turn around after swimming... and see me at the gallery and give me a smile... but he didnt... but... i dunoe whether he was looking at me or not lah... he was juz standing at the side of the pool looking over at the vj pple... if im not wrong... hahaz... then felt quite paiseh... tried not to look at him liaoz... hahaz... lucky ph's frenz wanted to go to the pool there and say hi to the vj swimmers... then i can tok to him... hehe... ahh these few days without phone really can die lorz... i tink i will get a 3310... hahaz... hope can get something better than that... hahaz... he's really a good swimmer... like... nj was almost catching up with vj liaoz lah... then when it was his turn to swim... he pulled the distance to 6s apart lorz... seh... hahaz... really got nothing to say... aye... tml only got 1 lecture... so can only see him then... somemore itz math lecture... so we wont be toking to each other much... feel like toking to him more often... but oso pai seh leh... hahaz... aye... he going abroad soon... dunoe when will come back... tink during that period of time i will go back to my sleeping mode for all my lectures... hahaz.. actually with him around not bad leh.. at least i will be awake for the lectures... although most of the time i wont be listening... hahaz.. =)

shocking me
8:21 PM